The funniest thing happened to me today. I bumped into my ex-girlfriend the other day when I was going off campus with the band. When we arrived at the club, we started to set up the equipments and stuff cuz we were going to perform for some people.and I just had to go. So i went around back and the restrooms were closed, the dude that usually opened it wasn't around yet. So I went outside and sighted some restaurant, and as I was heading towards the restroom. Some girl walked pass me, bumping my shoulder in the process.  It was her. I just stared at her. I didn't kno what to say, what to do nothing. She changed alot, she dyed her hair black, she wore dark eye-liners, ok lemme jus get to the point. She was gothic. She  was this perky looking blonde, who always wore pink, and proved the -blondes-are-dumb stereotypes. Gothic, she had become. I'm not usually someone that is surprised at things but...Something I never ever would have seen coming from her when I went out with her in H.S. To tell the truth, after a long silence between her and I  it started to creep me out. One of us had to speak, "hi, how long as it been?"  I managed to say.

her: only 3 years.

me: well, what'ave been doing, across state?

her: nothing...

(she was just staring at me with dead eyes. I got nervous.)

me: Are you attending college now?

her: yes

me: uh...What college. If you don't mind me asking.

her: I'm not feeling well.

she didn't look ill of anything.

I was trapped in the situation: A conversation that just wasn't getting anywhere. Aaron (who went to the same H.S with me) recognized her, and stood there with his jaws dropped, more surprised than I was. The other band members came rushing in, "sean we start in 5 minutes!" "let go,", shoving me through the entrance.

More than likely I'll see her again. Hopefully. Just that the next time I'll find things to say.

out.

I almost lost it when Sade (one of my girl friends) mother told me that I got her daughter pregnant. Luckily it turned out it wasn’t my kid which was a huge relief. It was some other dudes at school that I don’t even know. God, people can accuse you of things you never do. I never ever had sex with this girl.  I always use protection. I expected my dad to at least shout at me, that way I’d know he cares. He acted as if it was nothing. All he said was that if the kid is mine, I’ll be the one to take care of it while I still go to college and that everything will be on me. But he was only joking. He said abortion. Then he just then started telling me that he had got a girl pregnant when he was 16 and that the girl had to do abortion. Ok my reaction was that I wasn’t surprised, the way my dad is….Why wouldn’t that happen? I was more worried about my situation. No wonder mom left his ass. Which was better because they argue too much. And in the arguments my dad’s the obvious wrong one and my mom is always right. She makes absolute sense. He doesn’t see that. I won’t walk down memory lane. So I did the blood test the kid wasn’t mine. Thank god. I knew I wasn’t that stupid. God I hate Sade. So we had a conversation weeks after and she was like how she’s was sorry she accused me of this and that. And that she’s getting an abortion. Abortion is sad.  And then this stuff had spread through the whole school and girls were around and looking at me and just talking about me. Man. This kinda stuff always happens and when it’s with me it’s a big deal. Even was in the dam school newspaper. I can’t even go back to the way I felt, it was all the way up in, don’t remember. So I feel shallow about this now. Birthday went by, had a great time. So many other things to write about. Don’t have time. College is going to be sweet. Extra money, scholarship. Wowee. lol later.

I haven’t skateboarded in ages. After 15 I took on surfing, because I don’t know I got tired of skateboard, I knew most of the moves. Oh well…me and the guys and 4 other guys, howard, James, Shane, brad they came along with us, down to the park. Ok in all it was 10 of us in case other dudes wanted to start something with us lol. j/k We got to the park and we were all looking around ‘cause well it’s been ages. and we were just about to skateboard when a group of dudes from the loserish high school came up to us and was “surfers aren’t allowed here.” So we burst out laughing, I mean we were cracking up. Who the fuck is he to tell us we aren’t  allowed here???Besides surfing wasn’t the only thing we did.  So josh was like, “since when did that rule get established??’ and the dude was like, “either you go or it’s gonna get ugly.” So I was like, “we’re not going anywhere.” (seriously i'm not really like that) Then we started skateboarding…and laughing at them I still remember the skateboarding tricks not all of it. I gotta say it was fun going back to the rink. So they chickened out and left. no they din't chiken out we took over the rink. Well that’s all. I’m gonna think of something to do tonight. later

Again another ordinary day. I did what I usually do. You know. Which reminds me. My ex, jabiya called me. It wasn’t even a surprise to me. She asked me if I still wanted to be friends with her. I was like yea whatever, I hope it not a favor. She didn’t ’understand what I meant by that. Then again She never understands anything...so I said don’t do this because you feel sorry for me. She said some stuff like she was doing it because she wanted to. And that we can’t just pretend that we never even had a relationship..bla bla bla. Honestly I don’t even care if I’m friends with her or not.

It’s almost Friday. Only a few more hours to go. What else can I say??? un yea josh, and Aaron were making fun of some girl in tech and they went too far. Well not too far but to her they went too far. She’s a blonde...I don’t believe in that crap about blondes being dumb and stuff. So I told the guys to stop it because it was like she was about to cry. I mean I thought it was okay because she was laughing along with them so they thought it was okay too. i dunno. why do i think it's my job to stop them??? lol cuz they're stupid. so they stopped then she started going wild I mean she was hitting the crap out of josh and Aaron. They didn’t do anything back except try to hold her. everyone was laughing. a sub was in the class. Then they all had to go to the office. Nothing happened to them though. I guess that’s all. I didn’t understand what the hell ms. Gappa was teaching in foreign language. tjay kept cracking jokes and she had to stop and talk to him all the time until she kicked him out the class and then Aaron started acting up so he got kicked out and then Eddie started acting up and then he got kicked out. and then she looked at me and said I shouldn’t even think about starting. I dunno what the hell she was talking about. I went to get a hair cut today, not the usual guy I used to always go and then he did it horrible. But I don’t mind I’m always in the water anyway. So it’s always looking out of place. My car is dirty I should get it washed Saturday. Later.

Well I’m gonna be 17 by the end of the month. March 27. good thing it’s on a weekend. Wonder if they’re gonna try to have a surprise party again. The last one failed. I knew they were going to have a surprise party lol they might not bother again. I just hope at this party (that both my parents are going to be at) they don’t argue over crap and cause a scene like they always do…it's so embarassing. *sorry for the lack of updates. School is tiring me out. Work. curricular activities. You know the usual everyday stuff.

One of my co-workers asked me for a drive home. I mean she’s like 25-30 yrs old. Her name’s jenna…or jenny…or jen something. I don’t remember. I don’t know why I have trouble remembering girls’ name. she was very bubbly, you know…confident. Not pretty…not ugly. Average and chubby. We talked; we basically got to know each other. We were having some conversation while I was driving and she was like Sean you’re a very good-looking guy. I was like thanks, and forced a smile. Then she was like, “has anyone ever told you that?” I was like yea. Then she was like, “you wanna come over my house midnight? Maybe we could get our freak on. lick my pussy??” I mean she scared the crap out of me. She sounded serious. Then she was smiling like she was just messing around or whatever. So I was like “are you serious??” she was like…hell yeah I’m fucking serious!! I was like no I’m good. Good thing I got to her house in time. when she got outta my car she was like how I should think about it??? Crazy. I mean I would never ever, ever. You know. I’d die first.  I mean this isn’t the 1^st time something like this as ever happened to me; girls always ask me that at say…parties?? But you see those are really hot girls. she probably thinks i'm one of those other goodlooking guys that go around having sex with hot girls because they're goodlooking and they can if they want to???i dunno. i shouldn't say anything. all i know is that i'm not conceited. Swear to god I’m not letting her step foot in my car again. Out.

not much going on. I have a few projects I have to get started on. I fail this class I’m going to have to repeat. I hope my average doesn’t drop to a B or else I’m done for. I’m probably the only guy that cares this much about my grades in this class. I can’t believe they think a C is passing. Yea it is but to me it isn’t and to my mom it isn’t.

so Jessica was still bothering me about going to the movies with her today. Even if I did tell her yes I would have changed my mind. Work is tiring me out. no really dope movies its coming out anyway. Still I might go see Starsky and Hutch tomorrow with the guys. not to mention picking up Emily from school everyday letting her stay with ms. brown.(neighbor) because she wants to. Okay maybe that isn’t tiresome lol. She actually cheers me up. I don’t feel like going to see a movie today, just sitting there. they advertise a movie on TV and then when you go to see it it’s corny.  So Jessica was all apologizing for her wrong behavior and about calling me a son of a bitch and I was like yea whatever apology accepted. I mean honestly I really don’t care what she calls me. basically I just let girls do/say whatever the hell they wanna say/do to me as long as it doesn’t go overboard lol And I know if I still tell her no she’ll get angry and still call me a son of a bitch and other stuff (she did again) so it really didn’t matter. lol And she’s even asking me to go to the senior prom with her. The senior prom isn’t even until the end of the school year. she was like oh sean you’re gonna be voted prom king and me queen… god she talks sooo much. She just blabbers and blabbers on and on and I thought she was a quiet, sweet girl. I would tell her to shut the fuck up but wouldn’t that be rude??? Josh just called me telling me about some party at 9. I don’t know if I’ll go. I’m never home on a Friday night. So what the heck??